New Changes and Struggles

A few months ago I was presented with a wonderful opportunity to join a local (yes! that's in Waco) private practice counseling group, Pathway Counseling. Through prayer and lots of weighing pros/cons and conversations David and I decided that I would accept that position but only do it one day a week and continue at Scott and White for three days, because of the reliable pay and benefits that are needed right now with Jellybean on the way. At this point, I am looking to build my practice and establish myself so that later this year we might be in a position to begin only working in Waco at Pathway. I will be subleasing an office from one of the ladies for that time which is manageable for one day.

I am beyond blessed and excited about this opportunity especially since it was a professional goal of mine. I feel honored to have been invited and considered for this opportunity and have found good support in the meantime. Many of the things that this will lead to are a flexible schedule to be available to my family for activities, sickness, etc. and also to be able to pick them up from school, when they reach that age. It has been a struggle to be in Temple, though not unbearable, because I just feel away from my family and community. It will be nice to work in the place I call home. I also will surrounded by solid, professional women who have already proven themselves trustworthy, honest, and professional.

So, now the hard part and the reason I have cried at least once everyday so far this week. I will be adding Fridays to my work week. Which means I will not be with Matthew. I honestly feel as though I'm going back to work from my maternity leave all over again. This will be a tough transition but I have found hope in two things: 1) a friend reminded me Don't all good things require a little sacrifice?! and 2) as I pray through my feelings I am constantly saying "God you brought me to this opportunity and you made it clear that I am to do this, so you WILL bring me through."  I find some peace and truth in that. It will be nice at least knowing that I'm in town on Fridays and can be available if needed. However, I can't deny the hurt and worry I feel about this transition and just that Matthew doesn't feel like I'm doing this because I want to leave him but more that I need to in order to bring about the schedule we desire as a family.

So upward and onward with new opportunities and reaching personal and professional goals as well as hopefully making life easier and better for my family and kiddos. It will be a short term sacrifice for a long term gain. I am already learning to be more mindful and present in the time I do have at home with Matthew so this will only enable that to happen more. In the end I am excited and hopeful and Even so, It is well with my soul.