Disappointed

We had our doctors visit today, and it was not with our doctor. I had been nervous about this visit because it wasn't with our doctor but I had also been anticipating this visit for a while because it had been 8 days since our last visit. Well, disappointed does not cut the feelings I had.

The doctor we had didn't do any kind of exam, the only thing he did was take Matthew's heart rate. So, I have no idea how much I progressed, etc. David and I were both very shocked that they would not do that the week before our due date. I was disappointed because I've said all along, as long as I have the information then I can motivate myself and carry on. This was a pretty hard emotional day after that visit.

I am going to call our doctor in the morning (she was out of the office yesterday and today) and ask her about this. Our next appointment is not until our due date, which is 9 days away. So, if we don't get an exam before then it will be 17 days that we have heard no news about what is going on.

Disappointed, but hopeful about what is going on. There is no denying that my body is preparing, my mind just needs to stay focused on the prize and God.

On a lighter note, I have decided to make this Friday my last day of work and begin my leave that day. It was good to finally decide that and know I will have an opportunity to rest if need be. Hopefully he'll come before, but who knows. My family has decided that it would be worth breaking a very long family tradition of going to the Baylor Homecoming Parade to be holding our little one. If not, we'll cheer real loud in hopes that it will make him want to come cheer himself...ha!

Tough day, but tomorrow is a new one and we are still hopeful. I hope to have more news after talking with our doctor tomorrow.